Saying 'Yes' With Eyes Clinched Shut But With a Heart Opened Up

In Christianity the call of God, "come follow me" is to be executed with deliberate decisiveness on the human's part despite the certain unknowns and hardships that inevitably wait behind the door of conversion. In this way, we say yes to following God despite us truly knowing what grand decision we have just made, its earth-shattering ramifications, and journey for which we have just enlisted ourselves. Therefore, we say "yes I will follow," without truly knowing what obedient following entails. It is not a point of laziness or lack of researching that brings the uncertainty cloud over what following means. It is rather a message that cannot be discovered until you take the path of servanthood, journey and churn up the ground for yourself that you begin to unearth what following entails.

God gives us a puzzle, but only reveals portions of that puzzle to humanity. The portions/pieces of the puzzle God chooses to give us are sometimes joyful. But with every joyful piece there is a corresponding sorrowful piece that snuggly fits in and is the corollary partner of the joyful piece. The sorrowful pieces often mean deep discipleship and pain for the human, as they speak to the self-denial that must be established within every humans' heart that chooses to answer the call of servanthood to God. Regardless if the pieces you are currently discovering are full of the joy, discovering perhaps for the first time that you are a beloved child of God, or full of pain, hearing God's call to be a suffering servant, they are equally pieces of revelation.

Let us specifically hone in on a specific piece of the puzzle. It's the "come follow me" piece. You remember, it's the piece that Christians say "yup I will follow," without really having a clue of what they're naively jumping into. It's the part that entails faith, because we have no clue what lurks on the other side of that door. It's the part that allows your eyes to be clinched shut, but requires your heart to remain open. It's the part that requires you to say yes in faith, even though at this moment you may be too scared to open your eyes to see what true servanthood entails.

Unfortunately, it is our human nature to desire interrogate God. We salivate for the opportunity to spin God down and force Him to talk. We first want to demand, "First God you tell me what exactly we'll be doing, and then I'll decide if I'll choose to follow you or not." But God will not play nice is my interrogation room, I don't know about yours. He's always breaking my chains, throwing chairs around, and just throwing a real hissy fit.

What I think God is saying is that there is an element to all of this that cannot be known before being journeyed. That element involves faith. That element involves commitment while our eyes still cannot see, while they are still clinched shut. God has plenty of room to operate when our minds cannot yet fully see, God will work in the room of faith. What I wish to say in conclusion is, God can work while our eyes are still clinched shut, but has no place if our hearts are not yet opened up.